jesus its hot
i woke up this morning damp with my own sweat and thought, jesus its hot. its not the first time this.. season i've woken up wet... i find it overwhelmingly gross that my apt. is so hot but theres really not much i can do about it...
it makes you wondeer just how much stuff you do have control over in your life. right now i'm in a huge debate with myself, because i have a job, but i wouldnt really call it a job. i'm hired help and i have no problem with that but the work is anything but consistant. i show up for work everyday but only work about 50% of the time. Now this is maddening as hell since i know that there is work to be done everyday and that the fault falls solely on the head of my lazy ass boss.. Come yesterday a buddy of mine [ not really a buddy. we were good mates when we were younger. i moved, re-met him in highschool where he was a total... nerd. anyways hes sexier now than then so i'm really inclined...] offered me work. i think it pays about the same and the work sounds a bit harder... but really its consistant work. and the longer i wait to see if my first job works out the less chance i will have of taking the spot in my buddy's company... [there are other issues that i wont get into but i think its pretty complicated]
what do i do? it would appear that i am in total control of the situation, i can choose my destiny, but i feel i'm fuct if i do, fuct if i don't, ya know?
ANYWAYS i did plan to use this medium to remember events in my life... so may2-4 wknd, i went to muskoka for two days with mike szudy. it was good times but it was really..weird.. not really but i expected... well i expected nothing less really. it was probably the most beautiful cottage country i've ever been to. i cant even pinpoint what made it so nice. i kept telling myself it was the sky. the sky just had thisemcompassing quality. it sort of connceted us all.. whatever that means. I remember the first nite we got there we were staying in the boat house [yeah the property we were staying on had 5 building...very muskoka] and it had to be about midnight-ish and the huge window in the room looked out onto the lake. the view was a-fucking-mazing. the moon was glistening off the water as it lapped gentilly against the shore. i almost orgasimed on myself.
FYI the beer store and LCBO close at 4 pm on sundays there, just in case.
and brown people are not allowed. this was the whitest place i have seen in a long time. but not only are people of colour not present it really is anyone who is not a desendent of the UK. a lot of O's a lot of Mc's and Mac's. didn't see a ski or even a berg for matter on any of the sign posts... stupid white people... i'll invade your space dont doubt that for a second.
last wknd i went to 5ive for the first time in [jeez] like a year at least. they renovated. yeah. 5ive wasn't grimy or anything before. if anything it was more of the gay club image that i had but the update isnt a bad thing. issues to note that are jading me futher. bisexuals hooking -FUCKERS THATS THE SAME AS STRAIGHT HOOKING UP GET THE FUCK OUT. the i'm not that hot/i'm too hot mentality- what's really good. i see guys that i'm like 'omg! so hott... i can't go over there, outta my league' or the bi fuckers that walk by me with they're ultra huge shoulders and brooding str8boy goodlooks too hott to give me afirst glance let alone a second. *shakes head* i think the next time i go i'm goin to get trashed and barf on one of them... [chuckles to self] THAT would be great.
tonite is tequlia nite... oh god...
jesus its hott
it makes you wondeer just how much stuff you do have control over in your life. right now i'm in a huge debate with myself, because i have a job, but i wouldnt really call it a job. i'm hired help and i have no problem with that but the work is anything but consistant. i show up for work everyday but only work about 50% of the time. Now this is maddening as hell since i know that there is work to be done everyday and that the fault falls solely on the head of my lazy ass boss.. Come yesterday a buddy of mine [ not really a buddy. we were good mates when we were younger. i moved, re-met him in highschool where he was a total... nerd. anyways hes sexier now than then so i'm really inclined...] offered me work. i think it pays about the same and the work sounds a bit harder... but really its consistant work. and the longer i wait to see if my first job works out the less chance i will have of taking the spot in my buddy's company... [there are other issues that i wont get into but i think its pretty complicated]
what do i do? it would appear that i am in total control of the situation, i can choose my destiny, but i feel i'm fuct if i do, fuct if i don't, ya know?
ANYWAYS i did plan to use this medium to remember events in my life... so may2-4 wknd, i went to muskoka for two days with mike szudy. it was good times but it was really..weird.. not really but i expected... well i expected nothing less really. it was probably the most beautiful cottage country i've ever been to. i cant even pinpoint what made it so nice. i kept telling myself it was the sky. the sky just had thisemcompassing quality. it sort of connceted us all.. whatever that means. I remember the first nite we got there we were staying in the boat house [yeah the property we were staying on had 5 building...very muskoka] and it had to be about midnight-ish and the huge window in the room looked out onto the lake. the view was a-fucking-mazing. the moon was glistening off the water as it lapped gentilly against the shore. i almost orgasimed on myself.
FYI the beer store and LCBO close at 4 pm on sundays there, just in case.
and brown people are not allowed. this was the whitest place i have seen in a long time. but not only are people of colour not present it really is anyone who is not a desendent of the UK. a lot of O's a lot of Mc's and Mac's. didn't see a ski or even a berg for matter on any of the sign posts... stupid white people... i'll invade your space dont doubt that for a second.
last wknd i went to 5ive for the first time in [jeez] like a year at least. they renovated. yeah. 5ive wasn't grimy or anything before. if anything it was more of the gay club image that i had but the update isnt a bad thing. issues to note that are jading me futher. bisexuals hooking -FUCKERS THATS THE SAME AS STRAIGHT HOOKING UP GET THE FUCK OUT. the i'm not that hot/i'm too hot mentality- what's really good. i see guys that i'm like 'omg! so hott... i can't go over there, outta my league' or the bi fuckers that walk by me with they're ultra huge shoulders and brooding str8boy goodlooks too hott to give me afirst glance let alone a second. *shakes head* i think the next time i go i'm goin to get trashed and barf on one of them... [chuckles to self] THAT would be great.
tonite is tequlia nite... oh god...
jesus its hott
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